I’m posting this really early in the morning, so I’ll probably look back at this and none of it will make sense. I realise I haven’t posted anything in a while, but as odd as this may sound, my head has been completely free of any form of note-worthy thoughts for a long while. The reason I’m writing this here, in public, and not in my diary¹ is because I’m actually looking for people’s opinions. I’ll be severely disappointed if I don’t get at least one reply to this. I know this website isn’t as popular as it probably could be had I kept it regularly updated but I imagine it’ll get around.

I’m curious, what do people believe makes a good friendship? I’ve always assumed it comes down to trust. In the end, no matter what happens, as long as the trust is there, the friendship will remain strong. And that’s because trust relates back to everything. You want a friend that makes you feel comfortable? Well, would you feel comfortable around someone you can’t trust? You want a friend to always be there for you? If you can’t trust them, how do you know they’ll be there for you when you most need it? You can apply this to any “necessary” quality that is required to make a friendship.

I’m sort of talking nonsense here but I think I’m on to something. Another point is, how much trust is enough? Do you need full, 100%, blind devotion trust? Or just basic, minimal, don’t-stab-me-in-the-back trust? And does the trust need to be reciprocated? All of these are important factors. I know a friend isn’t like a business transaction where you weigh up the pros and cons, but if a friend that you trust completely tells you they don’t trust you back, what are you supposed to do with that? How do you deal with it? Perhaps a pros and cons list would be the best idea.

Hmmm, I think that’s enough for tonight. Or, this morning. I can barely keep my eyes open whilst writing this nonsense.

Oh, a last thing. I love Lady Gaga. So much. All her music. She herself. Everything about Lady Gaga I love. If someone knows about meeting her… I’d be interested.

^{1. Not that I have a diary…}

I’m having big trust issues lately. First my old best friend totally betrayed me and stopped talking to me for no apparent reason, and now my current best friend has stopped talking to me for something stupid¹ (Mmmm, that’s two people that have stopped talking to me. What’s the common denominator here? Me. I should get cards saying “life wrecker”.)

It’s a shame because I like trusting people. That feeling that you know for a fact that this person will never, ever hurt you, and will be there for you no matter what. That’s trust. But when people betray your trust so many times you kind of have problems doing it again.

What to do? Do I let people in again, only to get hurt once more? Or do I keep everyone out and never get the chance to be completely happy again.

Grant.

^{1. What makes the situation doubly hilarious is his excuse was about me betraying his trust when most of our friendship was built on lies he’d told me. Oh, the sharp blade of irony.}