I’m posting this really early in the morning, so I’ll probably look back at this and none of it will make sense. I realise I haven’t posted anything in a while, but as odd as this may sound, my head has been completely free of any form of note-worthy thoughts for a long while. The reason I’m writing this here, in public, and not in my diary¹ is because I’m actually looking for people’s opinions. I’ll be severely disappointed if I don’t get at least one reply to this. I know this website isn’t as popular as it probably could be had I kept it regularly updated but I imagine it’ll get around.

I’m curious, what do people believe makes a good friendship? I’ve always assumed it comes down to trust. In the end, no matter what happens, as long as the trust is there, the friendship will remain strong. And that’s because trust relates back to everything. You want a friend that makes you feel comfortable? Well, would you feel comfortable around someone you can’t trust? You want a friend to always be there for you? If you can’t trust them, how do you know they’ll be there for you when you most need it? You can apply this to any “necessary” quality that is required to make a friendship.

I’m sort of talking nonsense here but I think I’m on to something. Another point is, how much trust is enough? Do you need full, 100%, blind devotion trust? Or just basic, minimal, don’t-stab-me-in-the-back trust? And does the trust need to be reciprocated? All of these are important factors. I know a friend isn’t like a business transaction where you weigh up the pros and cons, but if a friend that you trust completely tells you they don’t trust you back, what are you supposed to do with that? How do you deal with it? Perhaps a pros and cons list would be the best idea.

Hmmm, I think that’s enough for tonight. Or, this morning. I can barely keep my eyes open whilst writing this nonsense.

Oh, a last thing. I love Lady Gaga. So much. All her music. She herself. Everything about Lady Gaga I love. If someone knows about meeting her… I’d be interested.

^{1. Not that I have a diary…}

Yes, yes, I haven’t posted in ages. Not that people regularly check here¹ but I still feel like I should update once in a while, even if it’s just to rant. I was considering vlogging instead, because I seem to be able to get my words out better when I speak than when I type, but unfortunately I only have around £100² in my bank and cannot afford a camcorder. I think I’d be YouTube’s next biggest thing.

Well, let’s start with a few updates before I get to the rant (oh yes, there’s a rant). Firstly, I’m basically living alone at the moment, and have been for about two weeks. My mother has been doing a mixture of working/being ill/retreating to her caravan, and that means I’ve been sans a parent. Combine this with my brother being at his dad’s house for a week, and generally not being at home, I am a free man! It’s been pretty good, actually. I did lots of chores today, willingly, and am knackered. I’ll probably go collapse in my bed once I’ve finished this.
Secondly, I have spoke to my friends for the first time since February/March. It was pretty good to speak to them. I mean, obviously I don’t want to just jump back in there and pretend everything is okay, but it’ll be good to see people again. More on this another time.

Now, to the rant! I’m getting thoroughly pissed off with people who think it’s fine to say “So?” or “And?” when I’m sharing some information with them. Just because you don’t care does not give you the right to treat something I care about as irrelevant. If you’re allowed to tell me your stupid stories (that are, in the general opinion, pointless) then why can’t you listen to something I’m trying to share with you?

It just shows how self-absorbed some people are these days. They think that the world revolves around them and that they’re the only people worth talking about/listening to. Well, no more. Next person that does it to me either gets a harsh slap round the face (if I’m able to) or permanently ignored. I mean it, now. Sure, maybe you don’t care that I watched the E3 conference, and maybe it’s not relevant to what we were talking about 10 minutes ago. But I’m changing the subject because you’ve stopped talking and are boring me, and you’ll either listen to it, come up with a more interesting topic, or get the fuck out of my face.

It may seem like I’m getting a bit too stressed here but it does take the piss when you’re trying to share something with someone and they’re disregarding what you’re saying because they don’t care. It’s rude.

There. That felt good, didn’t it?

Oh, something else I wanted to clear up! For Aell isn’t just for Aell. The blog is for anyone who wants to blog. Currently Hannah, my darling friend from America, has a username here, so check out whose post you’re reading before, well, reading. Otherwise you might get thoroughly confused.

Next time I’ll be talking about lying to people and faking who you are.

Peace.

<sup>1. To be honest, I haven’t checked Google Analytics in ages. I could be getting a million viewers a day and not know it (doubtful).
2. It’s sad that I nearly wrote A$100.</sup>

I just had an argument with someone who I can very reliably say is no longer my friend and I can’t begin to explain how angry I am. You know when you talk to people who are so idiotic it just makes you want to grab their face and hold it under the water until the bubbles stop, if only to put them out of the misery that must be their lives? Well, that’s how this conversation was.

I’m not exaggerating. We kept going round and round in circles. Now, I’m generally able to stand up and say “Yes, I am wrong” when I am in fact wrong, which I quite happily would have done in this situation, if it wasn’t for the fact that I wasn’t wrong. Apparently it’s my fault that I haven’t got in contact with my friends for a nearly two months, even though I had no phone, had lost their numbers, hadn’t seen them online and live nowhere near them. Yet they all have my number, have working phones and are capable of logging onto a computer to say “Hey”, but are faultless.

It’s frustrating, to say the least. Even after I explained all this to the idiot that was once my best friend, she still failed to grasp the fact that she was in the wrong. Yes, I was able to grab someone who knew you and say “Please can you contact my friend and tell her to ring me”, but why would I do that when you have made no attempt to ring me at all? It’s people like you that are making our country the shithole that it is, because your complete lack of knowledge and common sense is unbelievable.

Also, I would like to add that the excuses “It wasn’t just me” and “I don’t think I have done anything wrong, therefore you are wrong” are not, in fact, excuses at all. They are merely the blabberings of deranged fool (i.e. you) in an attempt to make herself (or himself) feel better in the given situation.

I’m making no sense now. I have a tendency to do that when I want to kick someone’s face in until even their own mother doesn’t want to touch them.

It’s a shame that this blog post, my first in what I think is four days, had to be a rant about my own personal life when there are so many things failing in real life for me to rant about. It couldn’t be left though. Something had to be said.

And I hope the person (or people) who this post is about read it and realise how idiotic and selfish they are, and can live with themselves, because personally I don’t believe they should be allowed to. You’re disgusting, you’re scum, and one day you’ll realise I’m the best friend you could ever have.

The end.

Grant.